For some reason the idea of death come to my head the other day. Not what happens after I die. Throw me in the furnace after harvesting me for organs. I don’t care. But what I have been thinking about is the Moment before I would die. What would happen? What would I be thinking about?
This question has been bugging me quite a lot. And the worse thing about me is that the way I answer troubling questions is to actually imagine it happening. And that’s what I did twice today. I placed myself at the moment of my death. I am on bed, wearing PJs with sheets covering me and I am dying. The thing was that the only thing that I was fretting about at that moment was how sad it would be not to see the people who matter to me anymore. Literally bought tears in my eyes.
At first I was really upset about it but then it occurred to me that maybe that’s what the IDEA of death is…..to make us live more fully. I know I will die one day but as long as I am alive, I am going to make the most of it!! And my main purpose in life is to make sure that everyone around me knows that I love and adore them a lot.
Since then I have been feeling better and feeling more alive than ever before. Try it yourself. Place yourself at the moment of your death and everything will become clear about what you really want out of life.
Good luck :)
Update : I just realised the massive Cliché in this post. The simple fact is that it’s the truth and that’s why it’s a Cliché!!
Desi In Toronto 
Anurag,
I am speechless after reading your post. There is one thing to experience death after a traumatic accident but my interpretation of your surreal encounter is that you are on the verge of some radical personal change.
Since I cant offer you any advice on the same without a similar experience let me quote some great people on what they think of death:
The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time. ~Mark Twain
The tragedy of life is not death, but what we let die inside us while we live. ~Norman Cousins
For death is no more than a turning of us over from time to eternity. ~William Penn
It is not death that a man should fear, but he should fear never beginning to live. ~Marcus Aurelius
The message from the quotes is exactly what you also found out for yourself and even more important is to love and to profess it often to those dear to you.
Pramit
Hi Anurag. Barrett from wills band of the week here. I think about death a lot, always wondering how much time I’ve got, whether I’ll be satisfied with the life I’ve led once it’s about to end. It’s a wonder to me that old people aren’t sitting around crying all the time, knowing the end is near. I guess you come to terms with it. Anyway, I’ll try to imagine myself in my last moments and see if I come up with an epiphany. Cheers!